This morning I woke up feeling very contented. Glad that we need not bring out our guns and parangs. United we stand.
I was doing my household chores and I suddenly felt melancholic but I overcame it and was inspired to write something. I have logged off from my broom and dustpan.
When I first joined SHC, I was full of anticipation, sceptic, eager, doubtful – a mixed kind of feelings.
When I shared what I went through in life in the general forum, people said I was seeking sympathy when all I wanted was for people who had gone through the same knocks as me could come and share and talk about it so they know they are not alone.
When I stood up for my friends, I am called kaypoh and when I became a committee member, I was called a bitch. But its alright.
I have gone through worst. I can take all these name callings. Thats why in the latest episode, I told myself what can be worst? Thats why I was not upset and try to do my best to cross the obstacles.
Three weeks time will be the 10th death anniversary of my hubby. He was everything a woman would ask for in a man. But alas! he was taken away from me too soon. But life goes on when you have your family and friends. I have heard of women who just waste away after they were widowed. But I chose to live for the people around me, although I was suicidal at one point immediately after his death.
What made me strong? My family and my friends. My family comprising my three lovely daughters, (now including my grandson and son-in-law) my sisters and their families. They took care of me when I needed them. And my good friends who were there for me too.
Why I kee chiu to be an SHC Committee member? Not because I want to be a bitch or a kaypoh. Its because I always remembered how the club has helped me in the 7 years I am here. After my mum passed on, three years after my hubby, I was so lost until I chanced upon the SHC website and registered to be a member. I made many friends, now some of whom are my buddies. They gave me the shoulder to cry on and the hugs I needed. These were just a phone call away. The opportunity to meet new people, to participate in varied actitivities. The exercise I get with the Walk and Cycling groups, the camaradarie at picnics, makan sessions, dancing, singing, chit chats, training etc. The opportunity to show off my baking and cooking skills to my buddies and friends. The chance to do charity work at these events. It made my going easier and happier.
So when Terence called out for volunteers, I jumped at it. I am glad he did not reject my application. He told me that the going will be time consuming, tedious and tough for the next two years. Yes, I know and I am prepared.
Have to go and log on to my broom and dustpan before they go sleep and I will need to restart. heeee!
p.s. I clean my own home to get some exercise and what do I do with the $50 saved? I go for a foot relfexology. Talking about killing two birds with one stone……the good things in life! A beautiful and lovely saturday everyone!